mad as hell!!!

Ok, so maybe I'm the adult in this relationship! And MAYBE I should be calm in these situations, but when my teenager screams and swears in the morning looking for his shoes, making me feel like crap, as if it was my fault he forgot his shoes at work, then MAYBE there is a chance I will be sarcastic.....I should be the adult in this, but it gets to me....I did find another pair of shoes for him to go to school.....but still answered "boy that must have hurt" when he said "thanks mom".....that might have been too much.....Especially since I will not see him 'til tomorrow morning....But what else can I do? AAAAhhhhhh! I hate this........

alone again....

Yep! my hubby is gone again...this is getting harder and harder...I miss him sooo much! And everything that has to be done around here is very time consuming....Picking up the kids, taking them to football or basketball practices, taking them back home, cooking, cleaning, washing...wow!!!! and I do miss talking with him, talking about our days, about our plans for the future, everything!!! I really really miss him....so what am I suppose to do about it now?

Empty

Ok

new week

ok, a week has gone since I wrote here...not much has changed, a lot of work, a lot of driving the kids and a lot of cooking. New recipes, had fun cooking...donuts, crock pot beef (porto beef), apple pork, very nice recipes! The boys loved them, what more can I ask for? Going to bed, as too late to even be awake anymore :)

new start

So in the last months, I came to understand a lot of things. Can't say I understand everything life throws my way, but I will get to it eventually. Running has been hard recently, for various reasons, but the real reason may just be that I needed a break from running, as that is what I do most of my days...running at work, to get to work, to get the kids, to get back home, to make dinner, to get the lunches ready, running out of the shower, and I could go on. Re orienting my family life to something that is more meaningful, more family oriented is my biggest goal right now. The first step is sitting down all together to eat dinner; sounds corny, but its not. In the future, dinner will not be an option...and certainly no tv for the kids while it is happening:) Let's see how long this lasts ! "MOM WHATS FOR DINNER?"

2010...first day....

Happy New Year everybody! A year filled with health, love, everything you deserve and wish for! But mainly, I wish for everyone to feel good about themselves, what more can you really ask for, right? For anyone who's been down a bit, just to be able to look at yourself in the mirror and say "hey you! I like you!" is a wonderful thing!

So last night was New Year's Eve....I know figures! Still, had a very nice quiet night....Tired from the day at work, spent a long time outside on the river, the guys playing hockey, fire burning in the outdoor fireplace, very very nice! Now, the very nice weather is calling me, so outside I am heading and hopefully the first run of the year will be just wonderful!!!!

Hope everyone has a nice day! 'til tomorrow ;)

Rain, Rain and more rain!

Ok, so it's raining outside, what will we do today? The kids are still asleep, the dogs relaxing, hubby at work a bit, house is still calm and sleepy....So....a little cleaning, a little washing, a little cooking....always fun! And later, a run! Who cares about the rain? When you run, the rain just wakes up all your senses...it brings out a little something more in you! Especially when the rain is so cold....