shelloontherun

mad as hell!!!

2011-11-14T05:14:00.000-08:00

Ok, so maybe I'm the adult in this relationship! And MAYBE I should be calm in these situations, but when my teenager screams and swears in the morning looking for his shoes, making me feel like crap, as if it was my fault he forgot his shoes at work, then MAYBE there is a chance I will be sarcastic.....I should be the adult in this, but it gets to me....I did find another pair of shoes for him to go to school.....but still answered "boy that must have hurt" when he said "thanks mom".....that might have been too much.....Especially since I will not see him 'til tomorrow morning....But what else can I do? AAAAhhhhhh! I hate this........

alone again....

2010-10-26T16:55:00.000-07:00

Yep! my hubby is gone again...this is getting harder and harder...I miss him sooo much! And everything that has to be done around here is very time consuming....Picking up the kids, taking them to football or basketball practices, taking them back home, cooking, cleaning, washing...wow!!!! and I do miss talking with him, talking about our days, about our plans for the future, everything!!! I really really miss him....so what am I suppose to do about it now?

Empty

2010-10-07T20:12:00.000-07:00

new week

2010-10-03T19:04:00.000-07:00

ok, a week has gone since I wrote here...not much has changed, a lot of work, a lot of driving the kids and a lot of cooking. New recipes, had fun cooking...donuts, crock pot beef (porto beef), apple pork, very nice recipes! The boys loved them, what more can I ask for? Going to bed, as too late to even be awake anymore :)

new start

2010-09-29T08:06:00.000-07:00

So in the last months, I came to understand a lot of things. Can't say I understand everything life throws my way, but I will get to it eventually. Running has been hard recently, for various reasons, but the real reason may just be that I needed a break from running, as that is what I do most of my days...running at work, to get to work, to get the kids, to get back home, to make dinner, to get the lunches ready, running out of the shower, and I could go on. Re orienting my family life to something that is more meaningful, more family oriented is my biggest goal right now. The first step is sitting down all together to eat dinner; sounds corny, but its not. In the future, dinner will not be an option...and certainly no tv for the kids while it is happening:) Let's see how long this lasts ! "MOM WHATS FOR DINNER?"

2010...first day....

2010-01-01T09:40:00.000-08:00

Happy New Year everybody! A year filled with health, love, everything you deserve and wish for! But mainly, I wish for everyone to feel good about themselves, what more can you really ask for, right? For anyone who's been down a bit, just to be able to look at yourself in the mirror and say "hey you! I like you!" is a wonderful thing!

So last night was New Year's Eve....I know figures! Still, had a very nice quiet night....Tired from the day at work, spent a long time outside on the river, the guys playing hockey, fire burning in the outdoor fireplace, very very nice! Now, the very nice weather is calling me, so outside I am heading and hopefully the first run of the year will be just wonderful!!!!

Hope everyone has a nice day! 'til tomorrow ;)

Rain, Rain and more rain!

2009-12-27T07:22:00.001-08:00

Ok, so it's raining outside, what will we do today? The kids are still asleep, the dogs relaxing, hubby at work a bit, house is still calm and sleepy....So....a little cleaning, a little washing, a little cooking....always fun! And later, a run! Who cares about the rain? When you run, the rain just wakes up all your senses...it brings out a little something more in you! Especially when the rain is so cold....

j

2009-12-27T07:22:00.000-08:00

I'm back!

2009-12-26T19:14:00.000-08:00

Thought I'd get back to writing my thoughts...not always easy to take the time, but I know it feels good...so here I am! I had a nice little run this afternoon, felt great to be running outside after running so many times inside. The wind, the rain...that wasn't necessary...but still. I had to run to feel better about myself! Don't always feel so good. Although I do have a very wonderful someone here, who is always positive and encouraging....I need that motivation from him and myself as well!!!! That'll be it for now...the rest, I shouldn't talk about....since it concerns people who I have issues with....

2009-02-11T19:15:00.000-08:00

good night! Went running a bit....my butt hurts! I did enjoy it! That is the good sign, I should start running more often, I feel free, like anything is possible when I run, so I will! I need it!

I will go to bed, I just need to rest to be in the best shape ever tomorrow morning for work!

It's been too long!!!

2008-09-23T05:24:00.000-07:00

I know, didn't take the time to write, been so busy! Not much is new. I have to start running again, will do so this week, as I want to get back in wonderful shape for duathlons and triathlons next year. This is a new challenge for me and I am up for it! The swimming is the big thing, I'll find a coach to help with the technique and everything will be fine!!!

2nd run!!!

2008-08-27T16:34:00.000-07:00

Ok, so this one was harder, specially mentally! How hard can it be to run a 2km when you've ran a half marathon less than a month and a half ago? I'm telling you, it is hard to understand. But my time was good, just the hurting isn't all gone. I feel it in my tummy, the muscles are really badly hurting. I did do a lot of stretching afterwards, but man does it still hurt. I wouldn't want to have to go back to taking pain killers everytime I hurt this bad. So I will think of something else, like swimming in the ocean, yes, that's it, swimming near the beach, beautiful white sandy beach of Cuba....ahhhh! I already feel better.

Tomorrow, I will take the day off running. That way, my body might understand that I am only trying to get back into shape without hurting it too badly like I did before. I do have an appointment with my therapist, which is a good thing, I desperately need to talk with her about so many things. I need to feel better about going back to work, I need to stop being so nervous and anxious about work and going out of the house. Sounds weird, doesn't it? I never was this way, my only guess is that staying home for almost a year hasn't helped me at all in that sense. But I do love my job, so it'll grow back on my, I know!

One thing at a time, though. And right now, it's running! At least being able to run a 5k without hurting so much! That's a pretty good goal, isn't it?

And the following day...

2008-08-26T07:30:00.000-07:00

Yes, here I am. And my legs don't hurt this morning. What a relief. It doesn't mean that I am out of the woods yet, but at least I know I can run a bit. Today, 2km will be my goal. It isn't much when you're used to running a 10k as a routine run, but it is well worth it if I want to get back in shape and run more!!!

Today, very busy. Should be a very good day, a lot of shopping for school supplies and a gift for my mother in law. Still a bit of fatigue that I have to fight through, I will get there, get to a point where going back to work will be an easy task.

back on the run

2008-08-25T19:35:00.001-07:00

Yes, I am back! Well, starting here today, but back on the streets, Ipod in hand and Nike on my feet! That feeling I missed these last few weeks. Now that I know it's only a minor problem, that no surgery can help, that I must take my time and just stretch more and more...well, I will run. I will run everyday if I can, because that is what saved me this last year. Running was a way for me to cope with everything I had to deal with. I still need it now more than ever. My body and my mind need it. So I will keep on running. Baby steps, as you can see, but I will get back into the shape I was, very fast.

I just wish more people knew of the many benefits of running on the mind. It does help just dealing with daily drama, whatever that drama may be. It just helps think more clearly and focus on the important things!